11142012: My little heart's sadness.

Ang sakit. Di ko alam kung saan at anong karma to. I'm trying so hard to be what you want me to be and it just don't feel right. I wanted to fix everything pero bakit ako parin? Bakit ako nalang?.. Wala akong makausap kasi kahit na anong sama ng tingin at sinasabi ko sayo, Ayokong isipin nila na masama ka. Ayokong mali ka, Ayokong ang tanga ko kasi pinipilit ko 'to. Tama pa ba to? Worth it pa ba tong pain? I don't have no one to talk to but myself. Ang corny kasi naaalala ko yung mama ko sa gantong times. I'm always asking her kung tama pa ba, Anong gagawin ko at kung bakit ganto.. Ang sakit nung wala kang sarili mo.. Yung lahat nabigay mo na.. I let go of my friends and let my world revolve around you.. Maling mali, Tama nga yung sinabi nila na nasa huli yung pag sisisi. And I am really learning the hard way. 

Mama, I wish you were here to tell me that everything is gonna be okay. I wish you were still here to welcome me with both hands whenever i need someone to listen. I wish you could have just waited and taught me how to be strong.. Ma I wish you taught me how to love and respect myself first.. I know you're still listening, I know you can hear every word I say. I know you're still watching me from up above.. Ma help me to be strong. Help me and don't get tired of listening.. I love you ma, and i miss you so much..